These Roads We Walk.

Been so long.

2009-04-07T23:18:23+02:00

i'm sorry i haven't written, in like, forever! but i will write more now (:
i'm totally weighed down with coursework, which is due tomorrow and only half finished, slight problem :L and i've been learning new songs, for the worship band at church
I wish i had a bit of time to relax. I'm so glad lent's finally over! I can finally drink tea, again (: wahoo! I've fallen out with Adam, though
he's like my best friend, but sometimes he just stresses me out, and follows me round like a puppy dog! not good well, i asked him not to go out drinking, and he promised me he wouldn't! well, he did, so i kinda won't talk to him! + he's blaming it on me, saying i'm overreacting! I honestly don't think i am! but as a christian, and a best friend he should not've got drunk or lied to me! i wish he'd just learn to live life, mistakes and all, not shrink back at all the bad things! i do worry about him sometimes.
I also have some, not so good news! I've started self-harming again. I honestly can't help it, but it's not as bad as before, and hopefully i'll be able to get over it, quickly! it might be just a bad patch?
I'm thinking about Kris, an awful lot, lately, and i shouldn't be! It's too much! i've deleted his number, his facebook, his myspace, his bebo, everything! but i can't help it! everytime i'm not busy, or have time to think, he's there, in my head, saying nice stuff, and i fall for him, yet again. it's hard to get over him, and i agree, i'm too young to be IN love with him, but i do LOVE him. There's a difference.
I'm going to get some work done now, but i'll write soon. promise x

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After Christmas.

2008-12-28T20:13:41+01:00

Wow, the sales are amazing. today, in newlook, i got a top, a cardigan, some jeans, and a hoodie all for like £26. wow! and in staples i got a big filing cabinet, for my sheet music, and a big massive notepad, for £20. i'm a happy bunny! so, on Saturday i went shopping in Leeds, Sunday in Crown Point and tomorrow at Trafford Centre! wahoo. But I know i'm gunna end up spending all day in topman and similar,, with Adam! grrr... although, we are going to watch Twilight (:
Christmas was good, we went to church first, then spent the day as a family,, blahh. Gosh, i gotta go do chores! x

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Oh,My,Gosh.

2008-12-22T21:25:50+01:00

Is it just me, or does anyone else find The Ringer totally pointless, annoying, offensive, tight and just plain crap? I mean, really, come on. It's total rubbish. In fact, in Geography on Friday, we had a choice between The Ringer or Pirates of The Carribean, and they actually chose The Ringer, ugh.
This week has mostly been okay, i'm thinking. I'm so totally relaxed, i can't think of anything stressing me out. Well, apart from the obvious one, of Benj, he totally doesn't have a clue I like him, he's so amazing! In fact, on Sunday night, I was at church, sat on Adam's knee (long story) and just looking at him, and he didn't have a clue. I think he's so ace, but problem is, my totally dorky brother Paul, has recently become friends with him, well i can't stand Paul, he's so annoying, he really just exists to get on my nerves! Well, anyway, Paul practically forces his company on Benj, and then I can't sit and chat with Benj. Well, obv I can sometimes, like when we go on roadtrips or at Sim City, or on a Friday night, or at church and stuff. But still, it doesn't half get on my wick!
Speaking of Benj, football is over for winter! So, I don't get to go watch him, playing, oh so brilliantly, looking mighty fine. And speaking of football, Kat has gone home to Cov, for 4 whole weeks! I can only chat to her on FB! And Emily's back from Bible College for Christmas, I do miss her, sometimes! Bless.
I was just sat, having a think today, and I realised, I don't have a clue about what career i want to persue! I mean, I know i'm only young, but still, it doesn't seem a lot of time. I can't wait to start growing up, and going to Uni, driving, having fun, etc etc. Hannah and Adam are off to see James Morrison in February, they want me to go too, but i'm not really into James Morrison. I got my allowance today and I have already spent half on Adam, and the next half goes on Ben H. :/ I never seem to have monies, anymore. Although, on that lovely day called Christmas, I will have two hundred pounds, yey! I may well be going to ASDA tonight, oh yeah, proper love it there! And it's rather annoying me that Chelsea haven't scored yet, grr. I must go now, anyway!
x

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First Post (:

2008-12-18T21:38:51+01:00

Right here we go, for the purposes of this blog, you can call me, Jaynie.
I'm thirteen, and so far this year, thing's haven't been going too good.
So, I've give myself a new mission to Sort My Life Out. It's called Mission Drastic! (:
So, I'm gunna write on here at least once a week, to track my progress!
Here's my list of goals:

- Put God first, + follow his plan for me;
- Get my grades back up at school;
- Get over a certain boy, (let's call him, Daniel)
- Stop obsessing over my weight/looks.
- Stop bitching about people!
- Generally, be nicer to people.

So there we have it! My lovely list of goals!
So, for the first goal, reading my bible and praying, would be a very good start!
For the second, lets start revising, and concentrating in class!
Third, start to think of him as just a friend, plus he's like 17!
Fourth, just learn to love myself! I'm beatiful in God's eyes, that should be enough for me!
Fifth, look at the good points about people, instead of the bad!
Sixth, well that goes without saying!

So, lets put this plan into action

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